Leaving Kabul: Flights to Freedom and Becoming American

Jennifer Walters

Leaving Kabul: Flights to Freedom and Becoming American

What does it mean to be an American? Birthright? A percentage of correctly answered questions on a citizenship test? A hand placed over a heart reciting the Pledge of Allegiance? Values and principles? For those fortunate to be born as Americans, we never have to earn, struggle or fight for this condition. For immigrants, however, their story starts elsewhere. Whether it be a brief prologue or many chapters that underpin their lives in America, the circumstances they face along their journey to America so often involves dramatic change or trauma. Appreciating the experience of our most recent — and very public — immigrants highlights our foundational identity as Americans — a willingness to risk and sacrifice everything for the chance to live in liberty and freedom. 

Just two months ago, two decades of continuous American operations in Afghanistan concluded with a stunning swiftness. As the waning days of August receded into growing desperation and uncertainty, thousands of Afghan refugees departed to a world unknown. Days, weeks and still now, they are arriving in the United States to build new lives upon the memory of the homes and heritage they left behind.

As the waning days of August receded into growing desperation and uncertainty, thousands of Afghan refugees departed to a world unknown.

Of course, this is not the first time a massive influx of refugees have arrived in the United States. In contemporary history, the size, speed, and reasons for non-combatant evacuation operations have varied widely. Civil wars in Liberia and Lebanon led to Operation Sharp Edge and Operation Fluid Drive, respectively. The eruption of Mount Pinatubo resulted in the evacuation of thousands from Clark Air Force Base and Naval Base Subic Bay. Etched deepest into the collective American consciousness, however, is the non-combatant evacuation operation during the fall of Saigon in 1975. 

The comparisons between Saigon in 1975 and Kabul this August were abundant. Unforgettable images and videos quickly emerged — Taliban trucks weaving through the city streets, U.S. Marines and Soldiers arrayed across perimeters of the Kabul International Airport, and throngs of people chasing a moving C-17. The images are powerful and heart wrenching, but they will ultimately enter the history books and become intertwined with opinions, interpretations, and post-fact analyses. Slowly, but surely, the stories of these people and their experiences, fraught with the strongest emotions on the human spectrum, will fade from attention. 

Slowly, but surely, the stories of these people and their experiences, fraught with the strongest emotions on the human spectrum, will fade from attention. But these stories matter.

But these stories matter. As fellow Americans and humans, we should have an awareness of the travails these Afghan men, women, and children faced as they absconded from their lives with nothing more than the clothes on their backs. As they made their way from Kabul to various intermediate staging bases across the European continent and the Middle East, KC-10s had already pre-positioned in England to absorb the passenger transportation demand of Operation Allies Refuge. 

I imagined the chaos and clamor of loading these passengers onto a KC-10 while attempting to ready the jet with my crew at an unfamiliar field. But this was too different, I had never been involved in anything like this and couldn’t reconcile the space between my memory and what I was watching on television along with the rest of the world. So I called a friend who had just completed a series of refugee evacuation flights. 

Callie is a boom operator. On a typical flight, she would handle the air refueling component of a mission. In the KC-10, boom operators also perform loadmaster functions — onboarding and arranging cargo along the aircraft pallets. Out of thousands of pages of technical regulations that specify how to perform this multi-role job, there are just one and half paragraphs written about how to perform refugee evacuations. She would have to figure it out as the missions unfurled. 

They arrived in Qatar where thousands waited for transport to the next staging location. “We got there in the middle of the night. There were so many jets everywhere, so we just pulled up to a taxi way and they all walked up to our spot. I’d never seen anything like it.” Through the cockpit window, Callie watched refugees gravitate towards the taxiing aircraft as military members created perimeters with their bodies to make room for parking. 

Stairs were brought up to the jet and the task of getting the refugees aboard began in earnest. A soldier met Callie at the top of the stairs, “We’re gonna load them in groups of 10. You have to show them how to use the bathrooms.” On the flight over, Callie had built makeshift toilets out of plastic buckets, trash bags, and kitty litter. The cargo bay of the jet was re-configured to allow for maximum passenger capacity. Moments later, refugees began to eagerly climb the stairs. “They didn’t have shoes on. Some of them had tape strapped around their feet to hold cardboard to the sole of their feet.” The look of relief was visible, but the distress was also palpable. To maintain orderly entry onto the jet, the soldier at the top of the stairs put out his outstretched hand every ten people, signaling stop. “I’ve never seen terror like that. When he put up his hand to give me time to load, they thought they weren’t going to make it on.”

Callie guided refugees onto the pallets and gestured with her hands to communicate. They sat with their legs straight out to preserve room and she placed a restraint strap usually used for heavy equipment across their laps. Under normal circumstances, the maximum number of passengers would never exceed 88. They took 235 not including children whose parents clutched them to their chests. As they lifted off and headed to Germany, Callie sat in an aft-facing seat and could see everyone’s faces. “As I looked back at them, the sheer relief was heartbreaking. It was good, but it was so sad at the same time. They were so happy with nothing.” Her crew’s engineer, a second-generation immigrant himself, began to quietly sob. 

The next evacuation flight originated out of Saudi Arabia and terminated in Spain. The cultural and socioeconomic profile of Afghanistan was evident. Whereas the first group had come from a rural area, almost all of the refugees in the second group spoke some English and carried cell phones. “There were 30-40 girls in this group who looked about my age. They wore clothes similar to what I would wear at home. We found out they were from the college in Kabul.” The communication was easier this time, but the desperation was the same. This time, they managed to take 248 passengers. 

As the jet leveled off and the engine noise settled into a dull roar, Callie scanned the huddled passengers who covered every inch of available space on the cargo pallets. “There was this little girl on the flight. The second we were wheels up, most people started fell asleep. They’re all exhausted. This little girl looked like she was maybe two years old, started crying.” Callie selected a small teddy bear out of the bag of donated toys the crew carried to distribute to children. “I handed her this little toy and we played peek-a-boo. When her mom woke up and saw the teddy bear, she looked at me and smiled. She was so grateful.”  

These are just two stories. There are thousands like this. Even for those who played supporting roles in the evacuation operation, the experiences were life-defining and without comparison. For those at the center — the refugees themselves — their lives are now divided into a before and after. So many are here in America now. What their transitions will look like I cannot begin to know, but the refugee experience is so often entrenched in trauma, recovery, and slow incremental progress. 

And these stories are a reminder to us all of our bedrock American principle: being an American has nothing to do with where you’re from or how you got here. Rather, it is a belief in liberty and the conviction to share that with those who seek it.

As the months pass and the years build and Afghan refugees integrate into the fabric of our communities, I hope we continue to share stories like Callie’s and remember that the road to America — and becoming an American — is different for everyone. For many now, that road was not at a road at all, but a cargo bay in a KC-10 filled with both fear and relief, desperation and dignity. And these stories are a reminder to us all of our bedrock American principle: being an American has nothing to do with where you’re from or how you got here. Rather, it is a belief in liberty and the conviction to share that with those who seek it.

Major Jennifer Walters graduated from the United States Air Force Academy in 2011 and completed her PhD in public policy at the Pardee RAND Graduate School in Santa Monica, CA. After serving as a KC-10A instructor pilot, she is now a speechwriter serving on the Joint Staff, Pentagon, VA.